bercuti lagi di hujung tahun?

as-salam
it has been 10 years months since nuha's birth
maknenye...
dah 10 bulan jugak aku tak pakai tuala wanita
lalalalala
kelmarin...
aku bangun tidur dengan pandangan yang berpinar
bangun je rase pening
bangun je pening
i said enche ahmad
tengokle anak
i want to sleep jap
30 minutes
aku rase baru pejam 5 saat
dah cukup 30 minit
kepale still pening
i took pcm
tidur again
until late evening..
my ahkak asked..
peknen lagike?
nononono..
i think mungkin tak cukup rehat
dari kemaman to sk
sk-gombak-paya jaras
sk again
and putrajaya
not enuff rest
since hanan n nuha share my bed
rase tak cukup tidur
ai bangun 4-5 times 1 malam
hanan nangis, nuha nangis
hanan nangis again, nuha bangun pulak
then 2-2 bangun
arghh..kalo anak tige
mau tak tido kot..

today..my head still penin2 lagi
nak cari pregnancy test kit la..
dap dip dup
arghh..
i hate dis feeling..
tp perut ai dah sakit2 macam nak period tu..
HOW???